On 31st December, 2017 i was excitedly anticipating for the crossover to a new year in a conference in Nakuru. As long as i can remember, this has been my way of cross overs to the new year, i have always been in Keshas since i was very young, i cannot remember any year that i missed, when we were young we used to have this superstitious thoughts that in case the new year finds you asleep you will be sleepy the whole year hehe but i would not be holding the same thought at this age, the reason why i stay up on that night is because it gives me an opportunity to look back at how Faithful God has been for the ending year and just worship Him as i enter into a new year(the earthly calendar) and dedicate the season to Him. So on this night i was walking down a building on my way to the service and ooops, i slip and fell. And just like that, i broke my hand. I was Physically broken, the doctor told me that i would need to have my hand on plaster for close to two months, 2 months? I was crushed within my heart, i felt that i was getting an evil spirit of delay in my life. I had hoped to settle and start working in January 2018, but my parents advised that the job could wait but because i wanted to prove a point in my bitterness i insisted on coming back to attend an interview and when the panel asked me about my hand and how i could work with a broken hand and i told them i can manage working very well and that of course, was not convincing enough. So after that i started blaming most of my misfortunes to my hand, in my eyes, it was some sought of a terrible delay that i had not planned for and worse still i was not ready to accommodate it at all.
Now the real problem was not the brokenness, the real problem was how i responded to it, as i mentioned, i decided not to accommodate it and ignore the time i needed to heal, so i tried out many other awkward things like attempting to carry water Jeri-cans, washing and all this trampled on me really bad until i found a new response to the situation: REST, i entered into God’s rest. I stopped worrying about what i felt i am missing and i asked the Lord to help me pick lessons and get physically healed. Within a few days, my pain was gone and i had peace within my heart, i still had the plaster on but i felt i was not just broken, i felt i was beautifully broken! and so i praised!
The illustration above as simple as it is and may even sound very normal but it is simply illustrating some example of brokenness. Over the past several days I have been reflecting on the idea of brokenness. You certainly don’t have to look far to see we live in a broken world filled with broken people, no one plans that at some point in their lives that they will be broken but it often gets to us, sometimes that visit to the doctor gets you broken, families that are broken, friendships or relationships broken, job-dismissal and so-on(the list seems endless). Other than the instance of physical brokenness i have had other points where i felt really broken; It is in my brokenness that I have been reminded of the beauty of being broken.
It’s tempting to ask why in the situation: i have often asked the selfish questions:
“Why me Lord?” (as obvious as this question looks like sometimes after i have asked it, i rebuke my selfishness and wonder if am insinuating that it should be another person who should be going through such but not me)
“Why now Lord?”,(Again i feel that ideally that the brokenness has messed up my plans, maybe i was just about to do venture into something new or close a deal but the misfortune occurs).
It’s tempting to wander in brokenness: I can wallow into rebellion or my own warped version of independence, instead of resting in the complete sovereignty and sufficiency of my Savior to handle my situation. This wandering can force us into circumstances where we want to fight for ourselves or manage the situation, we just want to take control.
What if instead of questioning we surrendered?
What if instead of worrying we trusted?
What if instead of wandering we rested?
There are three things God has helped me to learn every time i am broken:
1. ‘I Will Never Leave You’
- “The LORD is the one who goes ahead of you; He will be with you. He will not fail you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.” – Deuteronomy 31:8
- “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.” – Joshua 1:9
- “The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.” – Psalm 34:18.
We are never truly alone, even though there are times that we may feel like we are. The reality is that God is with us wherever we go; He has promised to never leave us or abandon us. At some point or another, I’m sure we have all had someone in our lives that promised to never leave us and they broke that promise. Humans are fallible, but the beautiful thing is that God is not. The Lord is not a promise breaker! His name is Faithful and True.
- “Cast all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you.” – 1 Peter 5:7
We can boldly come to Him and cast our worries on Him. He is never too busy to hear our prayers, He is always listening. Jesus was well acquainted with grief (Isaiah 53:3); even when we are ridiculed by men, He can understand. He beckons those that are hurting, those who are tired and worn down from life, ‘come to me’ He says He will give us rest for our souls. We can confidently lay out everything that’s bothering us, just like we would with a good friend. We can tell Him how we’re feeling, our fears, our worries, our concerns, and He will patiently listen to it all. The best thing is that He wholeheartedly cares.
Truly there is no point He has left me alone. I also thank God for the gift of precious people in my life who have graciously walked with me in those moments and pointed me back to the one who truly never leaves.
2. His Grace is Sufficient
- “But He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” – 2 Corinthians 12:10
- “My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.” – Psalm 73:26
- “I have said these things to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.” – John 16:33
- “The Lord is good, a stronghold in the day of trouble, and He knows those who take refuge in Him.” :Nahum 1:7
We are weak, but He is strong. Our flesh and hearts may fail us, but He is our strength. He is our anchor and our refuge in the storms of life. He is not surprised at our circumstances; they do not waiver or shake Him like they shake us.
3. He Works All Things for my Good
- “And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose.” – Romans 8:28
It is true that even a “no” from God is covered in love and kindness. We can trust that He will use everything in our lives, including the ‘bad’ and the ‘ugly’, for the greater good. He often uses pain and difficulty to better us and bring about new growth in our lives. He is a God that creates beauty from ashes and as much as pain hurts; the growth, strength, wisdom, and newfound closeness to God that it can bring is absolutely invaluable! I am a testimony.
It’s time to rest, you broken and weary. You are not alone…
In the potter’s hands,